Submission courtesy of anon
Coz you can’t feel yourself getting better and all you can do is go to therapy and take medication and try not to breakdown or self harm but you’re just waiting for depression to fuck off and it sucks.
feeling guilty for self harming, for complaining, for failing, for needing help, for not getting better, for relapsing, for eating; feeling guilty for existing.
I’ve been looking for you forever. I was walking around with this knife for a while, thinking I was going to kill you with it. If she hadn’t stopped me that time, I think I probably would have killed you back then, and I’d be in prison now. At the time, I just kept on living without feeling anything at all, thinking, “This is the fate I’ve been dealt.” But that wasn’t true. She stopped me. I got to know her. And by knowing her, I think I’ve changed.
